A full feature of the song featured in my previous post
Yeah. It's my life. My own words, I guess.
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for When they know they're your heart And you know you were their armour And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her But what happens when karma turns right around and bites you? And everything you stand for turns on you to spite you? What happens when you become the main source of her pain? Daddy look what I made, Dad's gotta go catch a plane Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she? I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying? Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're lying You always say that, you always say this is the last time But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it! Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket It's got a picture, this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha' I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror These fuckin' walls must be talking, 'cos man I can hear 'em They're saying you've got one more chance to do right - and it's tonight Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door It turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on And I'm singing
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet I take a bow and thank you all for coming out They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden? I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin' You lied to me Dad, and now you made Mommy sad And I bought you this coin, it says Number One Dad That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going But baby wait, it's too late Dad, you made the choice Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep screamin' your name It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it Put it to my brain and scream die Shady and pop it The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin' It's spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister Almost as if to say
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, so baby don't feel no pain Just smile back
(Eminem)
This is my favourite Eminem song. Not Love the Way You Lie, or Not Afraid, or No Love, or whatever else he's sung. I mean, rapped. This song. I looked it up after Xiu Qi introduced me to it at Shannon's karaoke party; I'm still surprised that it didn't go up any higher on the charts.
I don't know, I just think that this is a genius rap. The dream, the chorus, the voice, the soul, everything. It all fits, and it's so sad that I feel like I'm going to cry or something every time I listen to it. I still haven't listened to anything else by Eminem that does this to me. I haven't listened to his reportedly more controversial and insulting raps and it's a good thing I haven't, because I'd like to think that he's got a lot more tracks like this.
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Just Finished Reading:
The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (1st book)
This took me half an hour in the bookstore, the journey home, an hour at home and about half an hour in the morning to finish. Yes, that's right. I'm finally reading The Hunger Games, which I've heard from many people to be absolutely fantastic. They were right.
As soon as I read the blurb for The Hunger Games, I was immediately reminded of Battle Royale, a Japanese seinen light novel turned manga turned movie. In Battle Royale, teenage civilians are also forced into a government-organised game where they are forced to kill each other. There really are a lot of similarities, like how the deaths are projected in the sky each night, and how the teenagers are forced to keep killing (through different means, of course), and how a certain number of people survive at the end. And how this game, albeit to different extents, is televised for public viewing in order to keep the people in fear.
But it was a lot different, in ways that I would have never thought of. It's certainly a lot more kid-friendly, and there's certainly a lot less... shameless gore. Or gorn, if you're familiar with TVTropes terminology. More importantly, though both series focus on the depraved, horrific actions of the government, The Hunger Games goes down a different road. Rather than indulging in blood, insanity, gore, and more blood, (I had to stop reading Battle Royale (the manga) because it was just too gory, and honestly was just descending into pointless killings and excuses to expose the reader to as much gore as possible. I was in Secondary Two), The Hunger Games goes a lot farther.
The story delves right into government mechanics and media coverage and tears it apart. Instead of going right into the Games, there's an entire section devoted to the pre-game preparations which I really, really enjoyed. I enjoyed it to the point that I almost wished the Games wouldn't start so we could see more of this. And after the Games itself, it goes back to... well, I can't avoid spoilers past this point so I shan't continue.
And there's character development too! And things actually happened in ways I didn't expect, after reading BR! I mean, I knew that certain people were either going to die or betray each other and that certain people were going to make it out alive, but it was the way it was done (mostly) that kept me reading. Seriously. If I wasn't so bent on trying to figure out the plot I would have probably enjoyed it even more than I already had.
I'd go on and on but this isn't really a proper review; if I ever get my review blog up, I'll post a proper one. But just saying, this is a really, really good book. I can't figure out how Ms Collins did the second and third ones.
This one took me from when I finished The Hunger Games (about 1 PM) to just before Christmas Eve dinner (about 6 PM).
Coincidentally, this one's also about oppressive governments, but it's more of an urban, realistic present-day dystopia than anything else. Which is always good; it's as scarily realisable as Fahrenheit 451, except a lot closer to the real world. And just like F451 and The Hunger Games, this book is absolutely amazing.
This book doesn't have the vivid, incredibly well-developed fantasy future worlds of F451 and THG, but it does have an equally compelling alternate present. In Little Brother, the United States of America is shaken by the worst terrorist attack of all time, causing the Department of Homeland Security to shift into permanent overdrive. As the country slowly dissolves into a paranoid, frantic police state, the main protagonists decide to fight back -- by way of cyberwar.
I find that the main appeal of this book, to me, is very similar to that of Death Note -- I love seeing the protagonists outsmart pretty much everyone over and over again. Marcus Yallow, when assisted by his varying companions, is very nearly as smart as Yagami Light, and not nearly as insane. Rather than having an idle life and a God complex and taking the whole world with him, Marcus merely lashes out as fiercely and as rashly as a wronged teenager can, and the whole world goes with him. Although both deviously smart, Marcus is more of a normal-smart who goes in too deep and gets swept along by the current, while Light is a genius-smart who goes in too deep and, in the end, destroys himself. Both refuse to let go of their own ideals, but Marcus realises that he's not the one with the power and ultimately succeeds by letting the right people in; Light hoards all the power for himself and ultimately cracks. And oh, did I mention that both are teenagers?
At the same time, Marcus Yallow is very like Guy Montag. Though not really the everyman and person-in-the-crowd that Guy Montag is, both of them realise how incredibly wrong the world is and try their best to stop it. Eventually, both of them realise that as they go deeper they can't do it alone, and both of them know how to rely on others. And, of course, Marcus is a lot more proactive than Montag is. And smarter.
Yeah, what I'm trying to get across is how incredibly smart, yet how incredibly emotional this book is. I mean, with all the sociological discussions and invocations of the Declaration of Independence, and pages of expository devoted to explaining hacking and cryptology to the reader, and the utter geekiness of ARGs and LARPing (read the book!), and the utter genius of some of the plans, there's still at least one scene in the book that made me cry. Some of the tech may go over your head (there was one portion involving a copy-paste of actual code that I just could not understand), but ultimately it does not affect the story. And the story itself is so starkly realistic that you can't help but feel for Marcus and his friends... especially Darryl. You'll get it when you read the book.
Moreover, as much as the book deals with all the dark, grittiness and danger of a government in overdrive, it's written with a certain amount of irreverence that you should expect and enjoy in a book from the perspective of a teenage boy --
Nuuu I'm being chased off to bed. And I haven't even talked about Christmas yet D:
I'll continue this later.
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