Why am I doing this.
Monday, February 07, 2011 @ 3:22 pm.
I skipped the OG outing to work on my HSP essay, but now I'm just sitting here, not even having the Word document open, and getting a mini panic attack every time I think about it. Maybe it's just because I don't know where to start editing, or maybe it's because I'm scared that when I open it I'll find that my entire argument is shot through. And I'm thinking about my subject combi and how, despite all advice to the contrary, I still haven't submitted the options and the server's going to crash but I don't want to submit the form without my parents being home and God knows when my father gets home from work. And I've decided to go for HSP but now I'm thinking about whether I should be taking French or Spanish or German and all that shit and it's amazing how one sentence, one phrase, one word could tear down a resolve that's lasted for hours, for months, for years.
Screw this.